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Summertime! So much has happended this summer: I lost my job right before summer started, the girls went to CT to visit my mom, the girls auditioned for a modeling agency, we attended a few birthday parties & we moved. Although losing my job was a horrible thing and at first I was really nervous, I left it all up to God. By doing so I was able to move into a cheaper place (but bigger) & prepay my rent for 3 months so I could have some time to find a job. (& the girls have their own rooms again!) Thank you God! Not having a job has given me the opportunity to spend extra time with the girls that I wouldn't have been able to spend with them if I was working. I think that everything happens for a reason. God won't give you more than you can handle.

We started the summer with Melanie's 29th birthday pool party....we all had a great time!!

At the end of June, I met up with Aunt Paula (who was in Orlando on vacation) & she picked up Makenzie and accompanied her on the plane to CT. She was such a big girl. She went up for 12 days. Janessa met her up there on the 10th day & stayed for 2 wks. They both had such a great time. Boy was mommy lost without her girls. The first wk Makenzie was gone Janessa was with her dad for a wk, so I was totally alone. As much as I thought that the time alone would be a good thing, I was totally lost without them and had no idea how to react to my circumstances. I made it through the wk with the help of my friends. When Janessa came back from her dad's house it was Mommy & Janessa time (something she had been looking fwd to for a long time). We did all the things we couldn't do with Makenzie here. We went to the movies and saw My Sister's Keeper, what a tear jerker that was. She had her friends stay the night. We went out to dinner just her and I. That was short lived....now it was her turn to go to CT. She was flying by herself too. I was totally scared and she was so brave.

Here's my brave girl on the tram on the way to her boarding area.....

Yes I cried when she got on. There was another mom there that was dropping off her 2 kids....all 3 of them acted like it was no big deal and of course her and I were all tears. Janessa couldn't understand why I was emotional. Maybe one day when she has kids she will get it =)

So began my last 2 days of 'freedom'~ coming and going as I pleased. I enjoyed the time by getting a mani/pedi & getting my hair done. When I drove to Orlando to pick Makenzie up I was so excited. When I got there I paced the airport waiting for her flight to come in....and when I finally saw her the tears welled up and I was so ecstatic to see her. I couldn't stop hugging and kissing her. (for like a week straight, lol)

Here she is when she got off the plane and met Mommy at the baggage claim~

That started the almost 2 wks without Janessa. Makenzie and I were both lost. Janessa would call here and there if she remembered too. And the late night text messages about my mom snoring were priceless! Thank you technology. We celebrated Kort's 26th birthday the day after Makenzie got home....we all went to Kobe's Steak House for dinner. We had a great time.

Finally came the day we had to pick Janessa up in Orlando. It just so happened that Kort was in Orlando already visiting a friend so she met Makenzie and I at the airport. I was pacing yet again waiting for my big girl (who flew by herself) to get off her plane. Her smile was huge when she saw us and she looked like she grew at least 3 inches. Man were the girls happy to see each other!!

Janessa's dad met us at the airport bc it was her time with him. So our reunion was short lived. But it was great to see her and hug & kiss her!!

Now came the moving part....tons of fun, sike! Ugh, packing....ugh, moving. Well someone (God) was watching over me and I got a place in the same neighborhood I was already living for a fraction of the price. So that help'd out a lot. The place we moved into was an upgrade of the place we were in (granite counter tops, new tile in the showers, painted walls). It's a little bigger than the last place and the layout is different. And the rent was cheaper, what more can you ask for? Kort didn't make the move with us, that was for the better. So my girls could go back to having their own rooms!! (Janessa was super stoked about that). Makenzie upgraded to a big girl bed from her toddler bed and Janessa got a new loft bed with a desk/dresser combo. We got rid of the Dora theme in Makenzie's room and turned it into a fairy/princess room. Janessa got rid of most of the Tinkerbell stuff and now has a room themed on Purple, Turquiose & Green. I was thinking about painting their rooms, their two rooms are the only white rooms in the house.

This is what her room looked like a few wks ago. We have changed the furniture around a little and added some wall art. (I'll take new pics soon & some of Ness's room too)

July 28, 2009~ my late grandmother's birthday~ The girls and I went to the Rays vs. Yankees game at Tropicana Field in St Pete. This was the first game we went to all 3 of us. Each of the girls had been before, but never together. We were at the very top...but that didn't stop of from having a great time. Makenzie was so cute rooting for the Yankees...and my big girl was rooting for the Rays =)

The last week of July I received a call from Model Productions. (They had set-up a booth in the food court at the mall in the beginning of summer and Janessa signed up for an interview. So I signed up Makenzie too) They wanted the girls to come in and audition for a modeling contract. I dolled the girls up and went to the audition. Janessa made it to the 2nd round but her father would not allow her to participate. This is something that she is seriously interested in, so hopefully one day he will see that and allow her to follow her dreams. Makenzie did good too! (for a 3 yr old)

Then in mid August we celebrated Sarah's "Dirty Thirty"~ it was really nice to see all my friends. Some I haven't seen in ages. Almost like a high school reunion, lol.

Then we had a 'family day' on August 16th for Krystal and Nanny Ro's bdays! They came in from Margate and Kort, myself and the girls drove to Spring Hill to spend time with them. We played 17 rounds of scattegories, which was absolutely great! We celebrated with Nanny Ro's homemade Lasagna and a Casada cake from Publix, yumm-o!!

So now the Summer is coming to an end and we're all sick. The girls have sinus infections and I think I have the same thing. Janessa is starting the 5th grade next week, I cannot believe she is getting so big! Hoping to start a job soon so Makenzie can go back to school too. She loves her school and her friends!!

Til the next time~

Well where do I start? Its been quite a while since I blog'd last. My bad. I really wanted to start doing it more often to help me clear my head.....

Since my last post I fell deeper in love with Vampires. Crystin & I went and saw Twilight. I did not read the book prior but I wanted to see the movie bc I have always had a thing for Vampires. And that movie reassured me that I still love Vampires! The unspoken intensity between Edward and Bella was ridiculous.

Speaking of intensity....I have met someone special. He is the whole package & more. I am so glad that I met him. He is so cute & I love his smile. He makes me laugh & I love it. When I think of him I smile. When I am not with him I am looking forward to the next time I can see him. He's good with my girls and they love him. He has definitely brightened my days and reminded me that I am capable of loving & being loved. Before I knew him, I saw him from a distance & I knew there was something about him. That something made me want to get to know him. And I am so glad that I acted on those feelings, bc he is such an awesome person. Whatever happens between the two of us I know he will always be my life and always be a great friend. But I am keeping an open mind on what will come of us.....I definitely think there could be something <3>

So I went to Howl-O-Scream last night with my girl Crystin. I had such an incredible time. I love hanging out with her!! The haunted houses were ridiculous and I mean that in a good way. I don't scare at all, but they were awesome. I think throughout the whole night with the 6 houses and the scare zones I jumped once and that is bc I came around a corner and someone was right in my face. I predicted all the other jumps and bangs and screams. Poor Crystin kept jumping, we held hands through every house and I was her protecter, lol. The one house with the full beer was not a good idea...bc a majority of it ended up on our arms and feet. Let me tell you the one thing I was not happy with was the guy's breath that got all in my grill and was whispering to me. BUT the highlight of the night was....**TIE** 1. riding Sheikra for the first time (possibly thought it was almost better than sex~ but then changed my mind) and 2. Dance Club Haunted House that included my soon-to-be new boyfriend the Vampire. We so had to go through that one twice. And on the second time I asked him for his phone number, lol. Bc of the line of people I was unsuccessful in my attempt but I tried. So that is all that matters :]] I'm so thinking about going back before it ends....$20 to ride all the rides you want and to enjoy 6 Haunted Houses and Scare Zones and shows (which we didn't get to see)~ But maybe next time....

I really could've swore that I had blogged before....but apparently I hadn't unless it was under a different email and I forgot the log-in information. Anyhow....

Where do I begin?
Right now in my life I have a lot going on. About 6 months ago my boyfriend Cory and I split up. He left & I am stuck here with all the bills. I am out of work and trying to make ends meat. But the economy is in a real rut right now and jobs are minimal. I try and have a positive outlook on things because I cannot allow this world to consume me and my thoughts. I have to be strong for my children, so I keep a positive outlook on my life and where it is going. If you think good things then good things will happen. People who think negatively only set themselves up for failure. Some people think that they NEED someone in their lives to be ok....but I have realized (for the 2nd time now) that I do not need to have a significant other just to be happy. I am happy being me and being the mom I am to my children. Yes it is nice to have someone to come home too, to share things with and to love you. But that is not a necessity in order to be happy in life. These past 6 months have shown me that I can be a single mom to my two beautiful daughters. They mean more to me than anything else in this world and as long as I am sane and happy then my children will have the best mom they can have!! I do eventually want to find Mr Right and settle down and get married and possibly extend my family....but I am in no rush to do that right now. I need to do for me and then I can be with someone. When that day finally comes though and I find Mr Right...I think life will be complete. Adding that extra little bit of sparkle into my eye. But until then, its just me and the 2 bambino's :]]